it really baffles my mind. i find myself guilty of this as well, and always seem to catch myself and ask… wait, why am i doing this?

do you ever find yourself trying to please adequate friends/acquaintances  more than your closest friends or family? what justifies it in your mind? that you need to make those first lasting impressions on these people you hardly know? that your closest friends or family will forgive more easily? sometimes it’s just silly stuff that any close person will overlook – but sometimes it’s just too much.

also, i wonder when it actually comes down to it… how many people would pick their family over their (closest) friends, or vice versa. because depending on your relationship… you’ve actually shared more of your life with one or the other. and for those that have done this with their friends… would they still pick their family out of obligation?

k, not really sure what we’re ‘picking’ for, just some musings in my mind.

random: the dogs keep running to the door as if somebody is there, but i see no one. do they know something i don’t know?