security

every sunday i participate with millions of other people in reading the postsecret blog, where people can send their secrets anonymously on a postcard. i don’t usually connect with any, but this one made me smile inside.

this is how i feel whenever people say ‘god has a plan’ or ‘trust in god, he knows what he’s doing’ or like the postcard, ‘everything happens for a reason’. i admit that i’ve said these things before, but thinking back… they’re just empty words of encouragement. they’re cop outs to delving deeper into the situation… into connecting on a personal level. in some cases, i know that these words are comforting because, well, you just don’t want to take responsibility for anything or don’t want somebody you know/love to take responsibility. it’s god’s responsibility, it’s out of your hands, right? i guess so, but eventually… what are you going to do about it?

honestly, in the big picture, i do think things happen for a reason – but this just might be my perception and how i react to the challenges set before me. i want to use those opportunities to teach myself something, or at least better myself in some way. but sometimes saying that to somebody in pain is not always the best thing. sometimes, you need to put aside your own agenda. faith is a funny thing. for a lot of christians, it’s the only thing that matters. god is the number one priority. i understand that. i get it. i can even respect it. been there, done that. but sometimes, it’s just exhausting for the other person. and all i see is the hypocrisy of it all. it’s blinding.

anyways, don’t take these words to heart. i’m just recording down my thoughts. it’s nice to see how your ideas change year after year.